wine and dine lol

No idea what happened I was the middle good spiel and my word processor decided to quit on me. So I was debating whether or not it would be a lack of humility to press in for more of God you see Teresa of Avila had made a comment of how we should not expect for God to do anything we pray, not that we shouldn’t expect Him to do anything, but that we shouldn’t expect that we deserve anything. I was then thinking, well then where does pressing in or asking, seeking, knocking come in. So I think I've decided there is a difference between seeking something from God and seeking God Himself. God has told us time and again to seek for things from him. I think that when we are seeking God Himself the most we should do is make ourselves available to Him and let Him initiate the encounters we have with Him. And when He trusts us He will bring us into His wine cellar. (see song of songs 2:4; that’s right to word there is “wine cellar” not “banquet hall” for some reason the word which is translated 139 times as “wine” is in this verse alone translated “banquet” it’s whatever I guess as long as you understand that you are going there to party with Him and get drunk. But God definitely has to be the one who put you there. The more risqué encounters that we have with God are ones that He has to initiate. so pursue your Bridegroom be love sick for Him let Him be your sole hearts desire and He will decide when you are ready to enter into His pleasures. As for seeking good things from Him I get the feeling that doesn’t take nearly as much faith. It seems to me that He is all too willing to shower us with blessings or whatever needs you may have but don’t expect Him to bring into the bridal chambers before He knows that He has your full heart.